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Hey there, i'm really sorry for the screwed layout. I had a really great new layout to upload but then, it happened. I couldn't find an image hosting service; Can anyone help me? Anyway, Please bear with this horrendous layout, I'll try to make it look more presentable, yeah? And I don't really think I can afford to do any more layouts, since school is starting and shitz. Till then.

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It was Tuesday, June 1, 2004 at 10:06 a.m. when Ili said:

I have moved to Deletrius. Update your links!


It was Saturday, August 9, 2003 at 07:39 p.m. when Ili said:

She's Back! >> Hellloooo! Sorry haven't been updating in a while ): As you can see, i've been a very busy lady. Heheh. Anyway, to make up for everything, it is my utmost pleasure to compensate with these lovely pictures! ;) Hehehe. Don't Mess With My Man >>Great Song!>> [Spoken] Uh, I like it baby (yeah) Uh, one time for the club (ye-eah) Two time for my thugs, uh-huh Three times for my ladies, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon (ooh, oh) Uh, Nivea y'all.. JE y'all... (oooh) Uh-uh, JE y'all [Nivea] It was hard to find a brotha that was down for me So I'm tellin everybody let him be Cause he's mine and I can't take no pigeons tryna take my baby So I thought I had to let you know Find someone that you can call your own Cause now you're walkin in the danger zone And if I touch you I'll be wrong If you mess with my man, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Got my girls, got my man, so find your own and leave mine alone Don't mess with my man, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Here's a little advice for you, find your own man [JE] It was hard to find a girl that's really down for me Seems like a lot of niggas tryin me Cause they tryna take my baby, oh what the hell naw So now you really better check yourself Messin with my girl is bad for your health and So you know you will be dealt with Better find your own girl If you mess with my girl, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Got my niggas, got my girl, so find your own and leave mine alone Don't mess with my girl, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Here's a little advice for you, find your own girl [Nivea] Girl I'm warning you, if you want my man You should just keep your hands to yourself, now-now [JE] And playa I'm warning you, if you want my girl I suggest that you look but don't touch, now-now [N] It was hard to find a brotha that was down for me, don't mess with my man [JE] It's hard to find a girl that's really down for me, don't mess with my girl [N] Hard to find a brotha that was down for me, don't mess with my man [JE] So hard to find a girl that's down for me, don't mess with my girl [Nivea] If you mess with my man, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Got my girls, got my man, so find your own and leave mine alone Don't mess with my man, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Here's a little advice for you, find your own man [JE] If you mess with my girl, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Got my niggas, got my girl, so find your own and leave mine alone Don't mess with my girl, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Here's a little advice for you, find your own girl [Nivea] If you mess with my man, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Got my girls, got my man, so find your own and leave mine alone Don't mess with my man, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Here's a little advice for you, find your own man [JE] If you mess with my girl, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Got my niggas, got my girl, so find your own and leave mine alone Don't mess with my girl, I'ma be the one to bring it to ya Here's a little advice for you, find your own girl


It was Saturday, July 12, 2003 at 07:23 p.m. when Ili said:

Gee, I'd like to care, but I don't exactly possess that gene. Now that i've lost everything to you. I cried about 5 or 6 times today. I think Azlyn caught me crying the 5th time or so. I lost. everything. Everything. And well. I am not in a very happy mood right now so excuse me if you think I screw. But for those who know what happened, well. Dammit. Dammit. I don't give a damn anymore. I'm never going to again. I'm moving on. Cause everything I worked hard for- is. Gone. Just like that. It's like one day I had everything, and now it's all gone. Oh and thank you very much for making situations awkward with my best friend. Thanks to you, I don't know how to face her or talk to her anymore. I'm even having thoughts about who's my real friend and who's not. So the next time you ever decide to go for something, think again. Yeah SURE you're bound to get it if you work really hard. But you just gotta know this is life. Those cruel little things will come along and screw everything up. I am not a weakling. I don't give up easily. But what they're doing are so damn fucked up, GOD. People've been telling me-'Hey it's fine.. it's no big deal' WELL for your information it fucking hurts. But then again, you're not me, and you'll never know. So for now, I really have no intentions of showing any form of CARE or CONCERN because well i don't see the point. I worked hard, I got screwed up for things I didnt do and well yes. I'm putting up a brave front. I stopped crying and I cheered myself up. I talked to people who are so worth it. I found a new special friend. I'm pretending to be happy. Don't think I'm over it too soon. Not too soon. But yes, I'm moving on. To more important things that's more worth my time. As for Guides, I really don't give a damn.You gave me false hopes that I stupidly held on to. And so i learnt a painful lesson. Don't be too sure. What's yours may not be yours after all. So please forgive me, i just don't care anymore.


It was Sunday, July 6, 2003 at 11:58 p.m. when Ili said:

Some People think that they're so good. *Refers to Ain's sister* Ah I don't give a damn if she reads this but seriously. Her layouts are damn ugly and she still has the cheek to like put her name everywhere and get all overprotective. Put password here, put copyright there. *Snorts*

Tomorrow I'm gonna make sure I get homework and revision done. Like seriously. So please. Refrain from asking me out, anyone. *Glares hard @ Mariana*

Next Week is my sister's engagement. Cool beans, my mum said I don't have to go for tuition next week! :) But still must fetch Neem Mab and Raf. But Raf knows how to come here righttt? So well maybe I'll make her do the leading.

My New Phone :)


It was Sunday, July 6, 2003 at 11:53 p.m. when Ili said:




It was Saturday, July 5, 2003 at 07:19 p.m. when Ili said:

It's A Damn Cold Night >> Sorry guys for not updating lately. And er sorry for the screwed tagboard. I'll do the erm administrative matters like tomorrow or something. But then again, i'm too lazy and i need to study. So yeah. In the meantime, I'm only trying to find nice ringtones for my new hp ;)

For The Longest Time >> Took neoprint with Raf just now after the O Level Listening Compre. [ Malay ] Met quite a number of people. [ Anwar / Izzat / Azfar / Khairul / Brian / Melissa / Qiutong / Nina / Talib ] Ooh and there were this pair of TALL beautiful girls. Haha according to Raf, one of them looked like me and the other like her. Hm i hope i grow just as tall. Actually I know i will. My height is already 166cm now, and I should be 170++ by next year? =)=) Hehe.

Listening To: Beautiful // Christina Aguilera Mood: Calm


It was Sunday, June 29, 2003 at 07:01 p.m. when Ili said:

I think >> that I'll stick to simple layouts like these from now on. What do you guys think? I mean, they aren't a hassle to upload and stuff, and it's definitely been a chore to find an image hosting service ever since Boomspeed and Forever Free went *squats* down down baby. Hm yes, no?

I know >> I've just updated but couldn't resist the urge. Hehe. Well yeah am last-minutely installing Dreamweaver. Laa. I really think I should stop wasting time and get lost. Yes yes Ili get OWT. *Drill seargent voice* Oh God I'm really hoping that we don't have that Footdrill Pro Retest anytime soon, or I'm gonna have to stay back and train them all. Sigh. I really don't wanna but then again, I myself have to brush up on my marching and SIGH. Oh yes, hey Raf don't you think we should choose the new CP soon? Or should I say the Sensational Six? Yala the six probational ones I guess. Hm so how?

I want >> to read. So this time i'll really really really really go off.
I SAY..
  1. Trolling:: Digging your nose?
  2. Profile :: A clipboard with a man stuck to it
  3. Tin:: a silver tin with oil around it
  4. Phenom:: Sounds like venom. An instrument which sounds like a snake?
  5. Mug shot:: Drinking everything at one go.
  6. Tubular:: A tube like instrument which sounds drummish
  7. Six Flags:: White tiny flags.
  8. Pickup:: A lorry full of trash
  9. Auction:: Money, mansion, and a whole lota people
  10. Astonishing:: A person looking shocked while washing someth

Unconscious Mutterings


It was Sunday, June 29, 2003 at 06:45 p.m. when Ili said:

Then >> Wah tuition was quite fast. After tuition Tasneem and I went took 15 to White Sands and went to the library. After that we went to Magic Wok :) Anyway the 'twins' from Magic Wok were there. I was shocked when I noticed cause apparently one of them shaved his head. Lol. And there was this girl who served as, she reminded me of Mariana. Evilness and all. ;)

Now >> I'm gathering all of Raf's CDs to return to her tomorrow. Oy Raf, don't forget to bring me the diskette of pictures okay? Okay. Woa two people have said my revamped site looks nice. *Amazed* Ahh.

Soon >> School reopens tomorrow. *Buries face in hands and mumbles* I don't want school to reopen.. Aiya. Sigh sigh. Hm I just hope school won't be as hectic as it used to be last semester. I barely had time for myself for each day was full of Guides, Class, Guides, Class. I just hope they won't flood my semester with events. *OH YES THEY WILL*

So Sad >> Okay I think I should go now. I have packed my bag unwillingly and grudgingly. I still need to finish some homework.


It was Sunday, June 29, 2003 at 11:31 a.m. when Ili said:

Gasp >> What did I do to my page? Sigh but at least it looks better for now. At least from my perspective. Anyway, I never realised how long I had been on the PC until now; I just stole a glance at the clock. I'm really late already so I think I should go. Erm okay bye.


It was Saturday, June 28, 2003 at 08:01 p.m. when Ili said:

Me and Raf Syida, Raf, Me


It was Friday, June 27, 2003 at 07:37 p.m. when Ili said:

Happy Deathday!
Your name:fadetoblack
You will die on:Sunday, August 15, 2021
You will die of:Lead Poisoning
Username:
Created by Quill
Can't Hide It Can't Fight It >> Ohmygawd some people are just so egoistically inclined; Sheesh. Like who in the world would freaking want to steal her layout? I mean it's password protected and shitz. And if her layouts are THAT good, i can understand why. But her layout freaking looks like something out of a default template and she worries that people will steal it? She puts her name everywhere and her own blog is password protected. Like ohmygawd it's so annoying. I mean, it's her sister's blog and i see her name everywhere. Can't help that she also happens to be the biggest kpo in the world poking her ruddy ass here and there. *Barfs*

On A Lighter Note >> I just joined a Sirius Black Fanlisting. Hee. I still can't get over his death and the fact that it could have been prevented. But ah shits. That's the way it is. Raf's site is down. Aww.

So Go On, Go On >> If you guys can't read my entries, please please refresh my page kae! This thing's a bit insane- if you hover over the tagboard the entries cannot be scrolled through. So you gotta refresh the page. Sorry for the inconvenience--!


It was Friday, June 27, 2003 at 06:32 p.m. when Ili said:

I'm Back! >> Okay technically i'm not like back from some holiday or anything, just basically back to the online world. :D For a while though. Basically, i've been pretty much busy this week with my Guides Leadership Training Camp and The Band Concert @ the Esplanade! Wootsie. Okay my stories are real long so i'm not very sure where to start.

Firstly! >> I got my OTP! :D I got it the night I went shopping for presents with Raf, which makes it last Tuesday right? Hm yeah! I got the adult cover for $33 plus, a free book cover and I was practically floating with happiness! :D And basically, i just finished it half an hour ago, and it's so sad! :( But the book is wonderful. But why did he have to die! Why Sirius, of all people?

Band Concert >> Erm i've oodles to say, hm just to keep a long story short, first I went over to Raf's at around three. We erm, did some present matters there, and then we proceeded to pamper ourselves. I'd pampered myself at home tho, just did a few last minute touch ups. Yep, anyway we left her house then, grabbed a packet of fries and headed to the station. In the train, saw Tahirah, Farah and gang. Luckily, i'd brought my HP book, so while i munched on fries Raf read. Hehe. Ohh we took a few dozen pretty pictures! They're all in Raf's digicam though, and she hasnt uploaded them to her server yet. So be patient yeah? Hm but i must admit all of us looked real pretty. Erm reached the Esplanade OHMYGOD you should have seen Nadia's dress. She looked like she was going to the Grammys or something. When i leaned over to hug her, i could see her cleavage! Hahah but she looked pretty anyhows. Then there's Joy who was wearing a miniskirt and heels. I was shocked out of my wits and shrieked when I saw her. Rury, Nadlyn and Amelia were dressed like Nadia~ they all looked pretty in black! Hmm Sam Soh and Sheena looked pretty as well!! And Jia Pei-- you should have seen her funkeh hair!! So cool! Isabel was dressed like a Singapore flag *giggles* and Farhanah looked so handsome! Yuling was SEXAY, Charis was pretty! Amanda, Belle and Yiqun were sexy laydees and Xin Yi looked soooo different sooo pretty! Hahah. Mmm and then there's Rekha-she was MARVELLOUS. Haiz.. so many things to say! Azlyn was pretty pretty and Deborah looked sooo much like Michelle Branch! Hahh i feel like fainting. Minhui and Neem! You guys were greattttt. And Weilin! I never knew she had it in her. She was DANCING. lol. Sigh sigh. Mel looked gorgeous she was waiting with Lala after the concert. Roshni had make up on she was pretty! Rachel, Kak Nab and Cheryl were gorgeous~ Sigh sigh. So much to say! My little Monica so cute!!!!!! :D Was supposed to take a picture with her but forgot about it. But before i slept she messaged me and told me i looked really beautiful. Hahahah i really love that girl! So cuteeeee. Ah right after the concert went home with Mab, Raf and Syida. We were pretending to be career ladies. Erm and in the train there were a couple of white men who were apparently drunk. We panicked thus, ran out of the carriage we were in and ran in another carriage at Bedok :/ Hehehe. Reached home at about 11:15 pm. Sigh.

Camp >> was okay i guess. I mean. I really have too much to say. I'm having mixed feelings about this camp. So many different feelings. I couldnt help feeling anger and hatred towards the maams during the first day, and sort of liking during the second and third days. It was actually quite sad during the last day and well. It certainly was an experience i'll NEVER EVER forget. Something i can pass on to my juniors, definitely. For full details on the camp, just talk to me okae? GASP. JUST REMEMBERED THE LOGBOOK. ARG ARG DIE DIE. okay okay. Breathe.

Flawed >> So Little Time So Much To Do >> Okay, i'm gonna have to study real hard these two days to finish up all my bits of unfinished homework. There's also revision and the Physics project and Guides Logbook. Mannn. Playtime's over. Time to work baby.



It was Sunday, June 22, 2003 at 07:23 p.m. when Ili said:

And To Think That I Thought >> They are all gone. They aren't! There's still many many at Parkway! Wanted to get Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix just now @ Times but then it was $41.65 i think and I didn't have the cash with me. =( So i rang my sister and was practically begging her to buy it for me today until my battery went flat. *Cries* Had to use Neem's phone to continue with the persuasion until i was satisfied with a I'll try, but no promises. *Crosses fingers* I really really hope she got the book for me. If not, well then, i'll just rush over to Parkway and get the book after my camp tomorrow.

Speaking of Which >> I really really really don't want to go for the Leadership Training Camp tomorrow, Tuesday and Wednesday. I mean sure, it's a day camp, but i think it's a total waste of money and time =( Plus, i have to be in school by 5:30 tomorrow to tie the freaking flag pole, which is so not appealing. Meaning I have to wake up @ 4:00 or something. *Moans* And to make things worse, Raf won't be there so there'll only be three of us tying which is equals to double hell. I mean, imagine typing wood in the darkness. Sad! But if i don't go, that would be so so irresponsible- to abandon the sad two CP members left, which i shouldnt do. And also, the Ma'ams will slaughter if I don't come without a valid reason and arhhh so i guess i'll just have to go. Also, my patrol sucks to the max. I mean, sure, Ying Xi and Monica is fine but I don't think I can stand being near Amanda or Nora. Sigh. And Arg. Ask Shanti. She'll know what I mean.

Anyone Heard of Alkali Poisoning? >> During Chem tuition, Mr Lee was talking about how there was a case of Alkali poisoning; how the fishes can die even there's a trace of alkali in the tank. And he was jokingly saying, if your dad has a Flowerhorn fish or a Dragon fish and you don't like it, you could perform alkali poisoning. And i was going 'HEYYY Not a Bad Idea'. I swear i HATE my father's gay fishes. Before the many flowerhorns behind me now, he had dragon fishes which i fought the urge to kill. Now the flowerhorns are annoying the hell outta me- they're bloated, big, ugly. What more could you ask for? :X And especially since he's been accusing me of chatting when HELL i don't chat lar i just update my blog and i don't see any reason why it's wrong. *Strangles* So i suddenly remembered the Alkali poisoning story, and i guess i could get hold of some alkali from school when school reopens. ;) Just kidding. (I think)


It was Saturday, June 21, 2003 at 08:24 p.m. when Ili said:

Links UP AND WORKING >>So go check them out okay? *Points* :) Hmm aiya! This was released today! And i totally forgot about it until just now. Argg. Sigh. I'll go get that really really really soon.. Gosh. Mann i wanna read it like so bad. Sigh. I think i'll go check out the bookstores tomorrow, see if the people of Singapore have taken every single copy. If not, i'll get it tomorrow i guess :)

Speaking of Which,>> Charmian was telling me about how a truck of Harry Potter books were robbed and stolen. And Alyssa told me about this other truck driver, who was so eager to read the book, couldnt wait any longer that he tore out pages of the HP book from his truck to read. Man! The things these people do- and he got JAILED for that. Wow.

Saturday Slant >> Who is a hero in your life? Hmm. Reminds me of that song by Mariah Carey. Hero
There's a hero If you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid Of what you are There's an answer If you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know Will melt away And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you It's a long road When you face the world alone No one reaches out a hand For you to hold You can find love If you search within yourself And the emptiness you felt Will disappear And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow But don't let anyone Tear them away Hold on There will be tomorrow In time You'll find the way And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you


It was Saturday, June 21, 2003 at 11:45 a.m. when Ili said:

Snag >> Hey Rafness! Come back.. Miss you already. Aiya. Heh kay anyway just linked Lok Pin Wee! Hm hey guys if the arrow buttons for the entries don't work right, then you guys go refresh the page okay? Then it'll work. Just a reminder, thanks.
Hahah>> Anyway. She looks like Jai. Really! Hahahaha no lar actually it's just the hair. Anyway I heard that Jai and Roza are getting engaged soon and getting married next year. Like. EEK. Oh my. Since when did i take note of celebrity business.
By the way >> The net couldnt be used yesterday, according to her and my younger brother. Sigh. Something about there's no wire or something. Luckily i remembered that there's extra wire in the drawer- took it out fixed it and Voila! Yayness. Alright then i guess i'll go off now. Byeeeeeee. The links will be coming right up.. soon. When i'm free.


It was Thursday, June 19, 2003 at 10:18 a.m. when Ili said:

Good Morning! >> Oh my i am like so rushing this cause am about to go out with my family. Hm i told Kak Nurul to bring the nice beige shoes- hopefully she brought them! Mm ya anyway we're gonna go off to get some tunang stuff for my sister and order her cake from Mandarin! Heh. Pits down! I have tuition later.. aww. Oh no okay i think we have to go down now. See ya i'll update later (if i can :D)


It was Wednesday, June 18, 2003 at 06:32 p.m. when Ili said:

NEW LAYOUT XIA!! Whooopeee! (Goldberg);D Hahah lot's of additions coming soon eg; CHEESE!, CHICA and SITE. Okay patience does it!

DRUNK Oh my, my sister is acting really retarded. She sounds really insane, i mean, it's quite usual i guess BUT- she seems a little drunk today.


WHAT IF WEDNESDAY

1. What if you had to choose whether to die in one week, or, starting tomorrow, live your life backwards until you cease to exist (meaning, you wake up tomorrow and it was two days ago, and the next day it was three days before that, and so forth, through your entire life, until before you were born)?

What?

2. What if you had to choose whether to die tomorrow, or live out the rest of your life as a tree?

A TREE? Who the heck would want to be a TREE? (eh i know. my sis.)

3. What if you had to choose whether to, starting next week, live out the rest of your life alone in Antartica (with enough supplies to last but zero hope of rescue or escape) and be allowed one day of "going home" per year, or agree to go with the friendly aliens that landed in your backyard to explore other worlds for the rest of your life without ever once returning for even a visit?

Thanks, but i think i'll stick to the alien sister I have

4. What if you had to choose whether to be imprisoned five days per week for the rest of your life, or contract sudden, incurable amnesia, and never remember who you really were or see anyone you loved again?

Prison is fine. Heyy i heard that cells are quite in nowadays.

5. What if, upon your death, you had to choose whether to unsuccessfully roll that big boulder up that hill in Hell for eternity, or simply cease to exist?

*Ignores question*

What kind of questions are these? SIGH.



It was Sunday, June 15, 2003 at 08:13 p.m. when Ili said:

ON HIATUS sorry guys! my new layout and all will be up soon. be patient kays? you can reach me here ya? toodles! take care~ -Ili-


clearly - dying